Writing!

I would be a writer.  

In fact I love being a writer.  

It helps me put thoughts and feelings in to pospective, through writing poetry.  Through short stories I get to do things that could never otherwise happen.  You get to create new people, new lives, new worlds, everything is at your mercy, everything is there for the taking, if your imagination can do create it.  I love it.  

However my novel is getting tired.  I have spent so many years writing it sometimes I feels like a chour to do.  I have not spent as much time on it over the past few years as I should have done because on many levels it has started to bore me, and writing something is hard if your bored of it.   I have spent so many years writing it I now just want to get it finished, I want to get it done, I want to get it ready so I can seriously think about sending it to the publishers.  I sat down and did the most scariest thing one can imagine.  I deleted a whole chapter and re-wrote it.  I deleted over two thousand words because I didn't feel as though it was right.  It's such a hard thing to do.  I of course saved it in a seperate file so if needed be I can put it back, but I doubt I will.  I like what I've write.  I've actually manged to turn two thousand words into near four thousand words.  I have new energy to write again.  

It feel liberating, I just wish I didn't have to work tomorrow, so I could spend more time writing.  Never mind, no doubt I will find time to write notes on various section even if I don't actually do any re-workings.  

What I really need though, is people to read the finsihed thing and tell me what they think, to make detailed notes about what they think work and what they think hasn't worked.  What's missing, plots lines I've added but not alaberated on.  I also need someone to go through the grammer and stuff.  If I can people wanting to do that, the pressure would be on for me too finish and if I had that pressure I would proberbly finish a lot quicker.  I have found that people don't want to read something which is over sixty thousand words long, and to make notes on it.  I don't blame them, it's a lot of words and lives are just to hectic to do that, professional cost a lot of money, money I don't have at the moment.  And publishing companies won't look at something unless the writer thinks it's ready.  And at the moment this is no where near ready.  

I do love writing and I hope I never loose the passion for it.  My poetry is online if anyone fancies a bit of a giggle.  My short stories are not really on line anymore, I became too paranoid about people stealing my stuff, but you really want to read something just let me know, I can always post something on here.

I'm glad I've got some passion back though!  51,000+ and counting!

tags: frustration  poetry  writings  update