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Goodbye to the old
It's that time again, to say good bye to the year of old and to welcome in the year new.
It's been a funny old day today. My mother and I went off to see some friends we've not seen in ages, and things came up that got me a little down. Mam talked about the unlikelihood of her ever becoming a grandmother, all because apparently my sister doesn't want kids and me, well I'm never going to find a guy and settle down, she never said that but it was implied. We didn't push it further but it got me down.
I want to be a mother, I want to be a mother more than anything, but I want the fully family, a man who loves me, but that will never happen. I'm too scared of getting into a relationship and all that it entailes. I'm 26, I've not dated since I was 18, even then it was stupid. I wish I wasn't so scared and that I could just let go and go for it with someone I like, but so much is going against me, including myself. I want to be a mother and I want to make my mother a grandmother, and prefereably before she gets to the point she can't enjoy being a grandmother.
So here is to 2007 and me letting go of my inhibitions.
Don't say never Spike. If the thing holding you back is that you're too
scared and inhibited then you can overcome that if you put your mind to it.
I was the same as you Spike, scared of being in a relationship but when the
right person comes, it's okay, it flows and is good. You will find it too
just in your own time but I'll tell you when that person comes, nothing
will keep you away from them so be warned! Have a good 2007.
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